Many years ago, I used to write (a lot)... most of it is lost forever, but only recently, i found a couple of essays, lost in the cyberspace. I wrote these during the summer of 2000 during a trip in North West U.S. which eventually ended in my first visit to the Great White North, more specifically, Vancouver, B.C., more specifically, the 2000 Summersault festival, which included one of the last performances of The Smashing Pumpkins before they broke up.
So, a blast from the past... from a very exciting summer 11 years ago, I leave you with these two little pieces.
UNTITLED....
memories fade.....memories remain....all of those days lost in time, all of those friends lost in time.....there's a lost part of me walkin' around, begging, vaguing, somewhere in the past....am i lost in this present??? Present....what a boring thing!! are better times coming?? I hope so. Memories of happiness, joy and youth, memories of faded loves. Athemsof thruth soundin' in my head, knockin', hittin', kickin', whispering, comfortin', swallowin' my head, makin' me remember, makin' me expect a future, makin' me sad, makin' me happy, makin' me love, makin' me hate.... all at the same time..... confusin' me, givin' me hope, faith, leavin' me alone in the space, a dark, infinite and lonely place, for seconds, or for hours. This isolation is GOD speakin' to me, tellin' me i'm not alone, we all are not alone even though everybody think they are.....That's why our world is so fucked up.....I was down below, stucked in a crowd of creatures....creatures of GOD, fightin', pushing, swimmin' in our own swet, we all were blind, didn't realize that the lights were right in front of us, they were blindin' us..... a very bitter short message was given, and just a few of us heard it, and suddenly, everything stopped, and the children got home, all by theirselves, maybe a little bit excited, but still, they didn't hear it, they didn't see it, they kept thinkin' of nothing, speakin' of nothing, just like animals. That's what i remember, a big remaining beautiful memory, a golden memory. Try to understand!!! That when i can, I WILL! So, I will keep livin' my present, waitin' for the future, and rememberin' my past, my roots......with hope and strenght.....until the courtains fall..... GOD bless ya!!
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Peering in a deep mirror unthrue
peerin' in a deep mirror untrue.....isn't it that we do everyday??? everyday when we try to project a different image of ourselves....always trying' to follow the society, just like the cows follow each other in a big, idiot flow of animals....thoughtless creatures with no soul.....the soul they traded for the fashion, is lost in a enormous soul-trashcan, givin' more importance to the exterior, ignoring', hiddin', feelin' ashamed of their interiors.....that's why they're inferior, inferior to us, but not to the creator, 'cause he made'em at the beginnin, just like he did the snakes, the dogs, the bitches.....and we are challenged to beat'em and step on them so they don't steal our soul. Is it a genetic malfunction?? a virus?? a disease???....it is the devil himself who raise'em on probets, in vitro, on a big white evil lab of darkness. Let us try not to get superficial, and se our true reflection on God's mirror, let us get as innocent as children, as wise as children, as pure as them. Let us set all our deep happiness of life free and enjoy life, lettin' the satan's snakes aside....
(I'm very impressed by these ideas and thoughts.
They seem very distant.
They come from a younger me, one I can hardly recognize.
I'm also shocked by the fact that I don't agree anymore with some of these ideas...
It's so interesting how we evolve (or grow old... call it what you want))
